I don't want my love to go to waste.

Neji, whatever happened--don't worry! Even if you ran out of the discussion like a little girl, like Kakashi-sensei said, I still think you're very manly. That's...just how you get in touch with your feminine side. *nod*

...what happened, anyway? o_o

I think...I was knocked on the head somehow and have been knocked out or have been wandering around not knowing who I am for the last...well, however long it was. @.@ Either that or it was sweetness overload that knocked me out...

In other words, I don't know. ^___^ I remember I had a dream...

...

Actually, I can't remember now. =__=

Neji! Fishing? Visiting Chouji? How wonderful! ^____^

I've been given many sweet things by Oro-chan, Ojii-chan and Neji~ ^___^ I feel very lucky!

And Neji, if you're not being too gangster, would you like to help

NEJI - why are you down at the river looking at cute little baby ducks? I would have liked to have joined you. Did you take any stale bread to feed them? I've been trying to figure out stuff for the wedding and only Ojii-chan is helping me! I haven't been able to find you. ;_; Ojii-chan thought we could ask Chouji to cook for us, Ino for providing the flowers, and...I can't remember anything more. ~_~

I can't even decide on a hairstyle! What do you think of the following? And does anyone else have any suggestions/advice? ( I've become entranced by braids. o_o )

EDIT: Haku-san said he'd help me by making the bouquets, since apparently he's good at crafts and since Ino isn't around very much to talk with...but we still need help on what kind of flowers and colours and Ino would be very helpful. Were you thinking of anything Neji? @.@;

And Haku-san gave me the most cutest animal plushie! *_* *cuddles it*

((OOC: And this post is just primarily to say that Tenten hasn't been online for the last few days because I've been traveling, and doing unpleasant things like going to doctor appointments. To continue this theme I shall probably not be able to get online until really late my time, so that means I miss chatting with you all. I'll be back most probably by my Wednesday...which is most of everyone else's Tuesday. Yeah, turns out I was apparently lying. >_>;;))

Ojii-chan came and saw me today, and we started talking about the wedding and getting married and how I would have a last name and a family and everything, and then he told me some very important things about myself.

( Things I never knew. )

I've chosen my wedding dress~ ( Here I am wearing it! But Neji, you're not allowed to look. Isn't that bad luck or something? o.o )

( And I finally did this too. )

EDIT:

Easter Eggs For All! ^____^ Or just chocolate, if you'd prefer...
Kaka-puppy was playing with the easter eggs, and chewing on the basket. We were playing tug-of-war with it. But I'm sure the chocolate is fine...I mean, they all have easter egg wrapping on them. O_o;

Yes; the sky is up today. So is the sun and the moon and the stars.

( Private to Neji )

As soon as I decide to be happy and was trying to forget my worries, something else had to happen. Something I can't even remember...

( Thoughts )

I...I'm going to be at home...and I think I want to be alone...if you see me around, I'll probably be wandering aimlessly. u_u Like a kunai, thrown through the air, without a target.

...I don't think I'll be able to drink tea ever again.

...I'm now worrying about why I'm worried about something I shouldn't really be worrying about, because, I mean, there's nothing much I can do about this, is there? u_u;

...

( Sakura-chan, happy birthday! )

Today I have ate:

- A corner of a cheese and turkey sandwich Orochimaru made me.
- A bit of chicken noodle soup that both Orochimaru and Gai-sensei made me. (Orochimaru killed the chicken).
- ...stuff that you get when on IV, on which Kabuto hooked me up. Kabuto forced me; it was either that or pot, which apparently makes you hungry. O_o;
- A raw carrot that Neji prepared for me.
- A few pieces of apple that Jiraiya-sama cut up for me.
- A orange that the absolutely adorable Haru-chan made me eat.

...and I slept for a while under a drug induced sleep. Kabuto thinks I'm suffering from depression, and this is why I can't sleep or eat. Kabuto also informed me that from not eating or sleeping for 2-3 days, a baby would not survive. This...I...I was distraught. Have...have I-I killed my baby??

But Tsunade-sama is still saying I'm pregnant. O_o;

Neji took me back to his house to try and help me to sleep, but as relaxed as he made me, I couldn't. u_u He was fast asleep so I untangled myself from him and ended up with Tsunade-sama, Jiraiya-sama, Orochimaru, Kakashi-sensei and the babies still wearing a pair of Neji's oversized pajamas, and no shoes. The Sannin's decided to have a Sannin pajama party, which they let me and Kakashi-sensei sit in on. I heard some very interesting and amusing stories of their childhoods and unrecorded history of Konoha that they don't teach you at the Academy. I was also looking after Haru-chan, since he wouldn't sleep. He is adorable~ And he learnt to say my name! ^_^ Well, he can say half of it. 'Ten'.

Jiraiya-sama, thank you for trying to cheer me up with your little frogs, they are cute. And you're stories are great. I think they must have worked a bit.

I'm still reeling from what has been happening the last few days...

One minute Tsunade-sama proclaims I'm pregnant, and the next Neji claims this is impossible.

...I don't know what to think. I feel really uncertain and confused and...insecure, I guess. u_u And not hungry.

Drained.

It couldn't be a different medical condition, could it??

...what am I supposed to do? ;_;




I need sleep. Neji, you're still coming over tomorrow?

Since Gai-sensei likes hearing me sing, I had this song for him, but he had to go before he recieved it. So here it is for you, Gai-sensei!!

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=HRGRPKKU

((OOC: I hope the link works...T___T))

EDIT:

With the advice from Sakura-chan, and also because I can't deny my teacher nearly anything, try this link!!

http://s14.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2PEV78AVZZSQA1WCRGT06H5V2O

((OOC: And let's hope this works better!!}}

I wanted to apologise to everyone for my behaviour lately...it hasn't been particularly bad or anything, I know, but...I've been out of sorts. I think it had something to do with writing that journal entry....T__T;;;

I mean, fainting? For no reason? And being angry with Hinata when most probably I should have been angry with Neji, wanting to be Hinata's...pimp...=_=;;; and pinning her to the wall with my kunai. So, sorry about that, Hinata.

And crying over cutting my hand...I mean, really. I am embarrassed. u___u;;

Oh, and after that game of strip poker, I lost my glove. Another example. T_T Has anyone seen it??

And Kisame-san, sorry I forgot your birthday. ( Here is your present. )

*sighs*

*wants ice cream*

...I’ve been training a lot. That’s what I’ve been concentrating on mostly since Neji has gone on his mission. Training and perfecting my techniques. No, I am not bored. I do have things to occupy myself while he is not here. *frowns*

I've been playing with my explosives too. *grins* Yes, Deidara-san is not the only one who uses explosives. Heheheh...

Okay, it's true. I did forget about my explosives. But I've remembered them now. >=]

But I thought, I should write in my journal that Neji gave me, since it’s important to my health. It was harder than I thought, writing down my "negative emotions"...mainly because I DON'T HAVE ANY. >_>;;;;;;( *writes, scribbles, crosses out, rewrites...* )

*hides it somewhere where no one will ever find it ever in her sock draw* NO ONE is to read it. For everyone else’s information, I do not own a journal.

...I need to go train. Hard. Some place peaceful. With some sharp objects...( *nods to self as she leaves* )

Neji, Happy White Day~!

( A present for you~ )

I've been cooking! *mumbles something about not being a housekeeping uke...* T___T

Neji came around and I made him a Chinese meal, since he's been taking care of me. <3



I've also been making different Chinese dumplings for Naruto's competition...when is it, exactly? ( I suppose this can be my entry. )

I don't think I'll be on many more missions for a while. I still feel...*frowns* weak. Which is very frustrating, but I'm trying not to be frustrated. *sighs*

And I suppose I should thank you Kabuto, even though it was you who stabbed me with that syringe in the first place. So, ah, thank you, for your assistance.

And of course I wanted to say thank you to you, Neji. For the soundtrack, and giving me your mantle of immortality, I know it means a lot to you, so I would be pleased if you kept it, if you wanted...but especially for helping me. <3

UPDATED:

Kabuto, I forgot, but here, ( this is for you, for your birthday. )
Even though technically it isn't your birthday...but still. Happy...Non-birthday. ^^;;

I had a very...interesting experience this morning. I woke up in the arms of a man I had never seen before in my life. Thankfully I got away before he woke. Maybe I should have poked him with a kunai and got some answers, but I think I was in shock...actually, I still feel rather sick, with bouts of dizziness and nausea, and my left arm is rather sore, and has this great big bruise on it. But none of this is my greatest concern at the moment.

What is more important is if anyone could give me the details of a medical practitioner? I...seem to have...well...it’s not normal to not know you're own name, is it? Something must have happened to me...I don’t know, I can’t remember. That’s the problem; I can’t remember anything.

All I do remember is that I'm a ninja, and...that someone is missing. And there is a promise. But I don’t know...I can’t remember. I’m so confused...it hurts in a strange way. It hurts really badly.

I can’t remember this person, and that’s making everything not right. It’s obvious to me that this person was someone I loved very much. I need to find this person and fulfill this promise. Even though I have no idea of who and what. Or when, where, how and why, either.

This is all I can say I remember. I am rather stuck about what I should do now. Besides trying to stay away from that man with the long brown hair. *shudders*

I am briefly back. ( To do these quiz things... )

( And a private message for Neji... )

((Ugh...tomorrow is Friday and I’m desperately trying to get internet before the weekend, which I’m now thinking is not going to happen. I’m currently on the wireless from Uni, and I’ve decided since I keep getting disconnected so often that I won’t be on to chat. I'm so bored at the moment though that I'm putting up with it. If not tomorrow, by the end of next week definitely, I hope to be online. If I happen to come online to chat anytime soon and I do not say I have the internet, I shall be doing so from a much more secure but temporary connection, like from my grandparents or something. Yes, definitely not coherent tonight. T_T;; Hope to be back soon!!!))